this is me. today.
this is far from who i've ever been.
i weigh more now than i ever did pregnant.
it makes me sad.
it makes me shift in my chair.
and i can't believe i am sharing.
i also didn't have any makeup on and it was post workout and right after i ate...and excuse, excuse, excuse.
and so i don't leave you frightened with that. here is one of e when i was trying to get the self timer to work.
let me know if you are
You are so brave!! I am joining you, my friend. I'm on the road as we speak but I will be doing this. I desperately need some accountability and the ability to put me out there, no holds bar, with a forum for constructive criticism and encouragement. I bought a workout game for our kinect and the peanut gallery and I will be working through it very soon. <3 you!!
ReplyDeletePs. you can do it!!!
thanks tristan. i had to hid the half naked ones, but i'm keeping them in a folder for extra motivation. this was bad enough. really opened my eyes though!
ReplyDeletei'll be there for you! happy to find this safe outlet.
you can do it too!
love.
I did this the other day - though not on film. I had been avoiding mirrors, doing my hair, etc. I couldn't handle looking at how much weight i gained. I feel completely unattractive, have no energy (what am i, 100?!), and my dad just found out he has diabetes - along with both my gmas and mom. Soooooo - enough is enough, and I am also heavier than I have ever been.
ReplyDeleteAs soon as baby #4 joins us, I will be joining you. Although I am pregnant, I weight more now than I ever have and that scares me (and makes me sad). Like you I want to be the girl Jason married. I almost hate getting dressed in front of him because I imagine him thinking to himself how disgusting I look. I know he isn't and he knows the pregnancies have added some weight, but it is still hard. You are so brave for what you are doing!
ReplyDeleteMine are very similar to yours. I'm in a 12 jean and I even have to do the "sqeeze into my jeans' dance to get them on.
ReplyDeleteWhere could I post them to share with you?
michelle - that is a big motivation!
ReplyDeletejess - i feel the exact same way about getting dressed. i hate that.
bek - ummm let me think on that. i'll see if anyone else wants to share and maybe we can add a tab for before pics. or if you want to post them privately somewhere we can do a list of links too!